WHAT HAPEEN TO ME??????

there's still something......something tat i hvn 'get' it yet......n i dnt knw wat's tat??????tis afternoon as i click on my bro's blog n hv a look... ...n after i finished i continued checking he's friend's blog thn from tat friend's blog i went to another n another n another......well of cos every1 is from cgmc...... i started looking at their blog with a very joy,happy feeling... ...bt i dnt knw y n i dnt understand y... ...as i went through each n every1 my modd was change!!!!!!it started with a happy feeling n than it went to a very sad feeling than i wanna cry bt cant......than it continued with a very dull n then no mood, no feeling,no expression then it finally come to the 'feeling' nw... ...dead... ...no more feeling... ...even though i laugh,smile it'll nt like into the mood to laugh or smile la......very weird la......it's like......no more feeling adi la... ...yesterday i was like WOW!!!!!!Christmas 2mr yea... ...happy n to be honest with u guys......i didn't read my bible n pray at night......cos i watched PhAnToM Of tHe oPeRa till 1.30 tis morning!!!!!!bt it's really-really a good movie......my all time favorite book & movie......I'M sorry LORD... ...I CONFESS MY THIS ATTITUDE... ...N WILL NOT DO IT AGAIN......at 1st i thought was maybe i was tired thn i went a nap......bt i didn't had it......i was NOT TIRED!!!!!!I DIDN'T EVEN CLOSE MY EYES......ARRRRRR......i hate this no feeling's feeling man......dnt knw wat's wrong with me la......haiz... ...hw can only viewing other ppl's blog can make me from happy to no feeling AT ALL??????today is ChRiStMaS!!!!!!isn't it should be fun?happy?laughter?haiz......hope tat i can be better 2mr... ...SiGnInG OfF wItH nO FeElInG... ...haiz... ...wat happen??????